I know we did the best we could, but it really was awful to lose. I like our client a lot. He's this frail older man. His exposure is 11 years and I think that might be end up actually being a life sentence because of his various illnesses and frailties.
All this has been very emotionally draining, but at the same time we have to let it go. We start a new trial on Monday.
I think that this has to be one of the hardest parts of being a public defender. You don't even get a real grieving or reflection period before moving on to another trial. I suppose it gets easier with time.